I have changed the layout of this blog :X
okay, about my life. Extremely uninteresting. I’m just entertaining myself by blogging here HAHA. I’m busy learning how to vector my head off

.. is coming soon. I just need to think of a site name, again. “Mannequin” is so wrong

I realised that I hadn’t update for long. Nothing’s really going on with my boring life, really. Busy making a layout for my coming-soon graphic site, and also working for my dad. Typical. And OH! Listening to Michael Jackson songs.
I feel so sad for my dog. I have being ignoring it, but i don’t mean to.

… I designed a layout for this blog and decided to name it Mannequin. Initially I designed this to submit it to blogskins.com, but I decided to use it first before submitting to the website to let other people use because I liked it a lot (And I’ve gotta say sorry to the layout I made previously for Mannequin… I think I’ll be using it a few months later or something). This layout features Gemma Ward – I so admire her alien-like face!

I am recently in the Korean-pop C R A Z E and listening to songs by Wonder Girls, SNSD, Shinee, SS501, 4MINUTE, 2PM… you name it! I don’t know why I don’t get to the Jpop Craze, not even once in my whole life. I guess it’s because there’s A LOT of artists, or Japanese shows don’t air much in my country (there are a lot of korean/taiwan idol shows aired in my country!)

Another craze I’ve been getting: Restaurant City. I once to think that it’s such a lame game, but now I’ve been having FUN! But I know I’ll get sick of it some day..

.. actually not me, but this blog of mine. It’s an utter failure that I’ve used my name as the url of this blog, but it’s an even deeper disappointment that it’s got no name. No, I don’t want this blog to be self-named. Suggestions?

I’ve got the layout ready. I designed it yesterday, originally wanted to publish it to the world (@blogskins) so that everyone can use it on their blogger website. But I decided it’ll be for this blog instead, since I want to complete things which are urgent first.

Suggestions! I want a long name, for now I’m not really interested in short names (I was, but yeah). I got some ideas, but not sure if they are fine..

bitteroblivion
breakthesilence
fadetogrey
falltothefloor

I spent about 2 hours watching videos on youtube and I found this:

It’s really sad to say this but: I want to get out of the fan-site world as soon as possible.

Why?

I’ve been tempting myself again and again, but all is too good to be true. I want to stay to 1 domain, which will be my network domain, live on it forever, carry on my sites in sub-domains under it.
I’m also sick of doing designs for others, which is really a bad thing. If you hadn’t know, I have been doing free layouts (graphics and coding).

Okay, so I gave up all most of my fan-sites. It was a hard decision, and I was shocked that I could even bear to give up the site I ran for 10 months: a design site I worked on every. This was a very hard-to-make decision. But I know I won’t regret, although I’ll be very sad for a few days.

Anyway, Drama Night is coming up and I just got my flu bug, again. How brilliant is that? First off, it’s the 3rd time I got sick in 2 months flat. Applause. Second, my voice make others seems like something is stuffed in my nose.

Our drama teacher decided to work on the scene where Romeo and Juliet meets. Apparently, we were supposed to do the “hi” scene, like:

Narrator: Romeo and Juliet sees each other across the room.
Romeo: Hi.
Juliet: Hi.
Romeo: Nice Party.
Juliet: Yeah.

But now, because of one of my classmate’s suggestion (which was utterly dumb), the scene is edited to whereby I am supposed to grab a drink, then I see Romeo. Upon seeing him, I must take off my mask, gasp in awe (imagine me doing that, oh my gosh), then I’d have to drop the mask because he was to dazzling ( it’s such a painful thing to do, cause’ the Romeo I am acting with makes me laugh). Romeo will then come up to me, pick up my mask, ask if it’s mine. I’ll be like,”Yeah, Thank you”.

The first time we did this thing, I was a hopeless case. The guy who acted Romeo did did well, and I admit I didn’t. My drama teacher was like, “Juliet, you’re disappointing yourself here.”

Honestly, if it was easy to do, then why doesn’t she do it herself? :/

The advertisement above is what my classmate suggested. Wow. I’m not delighted at all.

I listened about 2 new albums and 1 new single. And I’m a bit of disappointed. It seems like music nowadays doesn’t attract me anymore. But some really do, like 4minute’s Musik and Ariel Lin’s Meeting Happiness.

I just found out that the work I did yesterday was a total.. extra? I was supposed to use  different images for the gallery, but it was my father’s assistant’s fault – she gave me the wrong images. Now I have to re-do everything again. So much for staying up late and working, vigorously.

This morning, I went out with my group of friends. 3 couldn’t make it. We were choosing masks to wear during Drama Night this november, in which we have to act in this play called Romeo & Juliet. When I was there, my friends had already chosen the masks they wanted. They helped me to choose one during the process: a pink-ish, feathery mask. I hate pink, seriously. I wanted to pick other designs of the mask, but the ones I want were all taken. Taken by who, you ask? Taken by all of my friends. How I wished I have gone earlier, then I had my choice to choose. All the masks that were nice were all taken; it made me felt a tinge of disappointment, meanwhile a bit of anger. I really hate pink, and pink doesn’t go well with a blood-lish red dress, right? I wanted a white mask, but one of my friends said she’s going to buy it for another person who’s part of the play too. I didn’t voice out because I didn’t want to seem to be bossy and choosy about anything, but I really wanted my own choice..

Sometimes, people say things that aren’t true to their hearts. I shouldn’t have taken such a significant role in the play. I hate my english drama teacher – she dislikes me too. She wanted one of my friends to play Juliet, but that friend didn’t want to. She wanted to be Lady Capulet (we edited the play because there were more girls than boys). A whole lot things happened.. and now I’m casted for the role, I feel pathetic. It’s making me jittery. And if you still don’t get what i’m saying, here’s the catch: I’m Juliet in the play.

I’m trying hard and hard to get my real life back. I can’t find the “me” I want!

(p.s I was surfing around the web when I found a site owned by people I knew long ago but lost contact. Not sure if the owners still remember me or not, but I knew them using my other name when I was younger.)

I guess it’s because I’ve got involved in too much “fan-site making“, thus resulting in such an unfamiliarity to be hosted under a sub-domain. I’ve pampered myself with too much domains, and if I were too want more I think I will be classified as greedy, full stop.

These days, I have been pissing myself off, like, I didn’t want to talk to anyone ( also called isolation ). But I’m getting better, and I feel guilty of my friends, who seem to don’t know what the heck is going on to me.

Now it’s 12:27AM as I type this. I have been staying up late to work, work, work. 13 and working. I don’t actually consider web designing as a chore, but as a hobby, and now it’s called work because I’m web designing for my father (but I still feel rather happy).

I like this layout. I like big fonts. But of course I’ll make a layout for this personal blog. The default theme Kubrick is nice, but I don’t really like it. A new layout will be up (A.S.A.P), so please make do with this  theme for a little while~

School as usual. I got back my results, I was already laughing out loud when I realised that I didn’t fail my math (I skipped almost half of the paper, thank you). Then there was this girl whom I really didn’t like (and vice versa). She tried to see my marks because she got really good (or shall I say, excellent) results this time. I’m neither shocked or sad. I don’t know why everybody is “shocked” or whatsoever about her marks. I’m really pissed off that she is trying to show off her high marks, and when she got low marks for literature, she complained of  being “hard to breathe”. Her fellow friends said it was lack of oxygen.  I thought it was just all a plot, a total scam.

I wonder if these kind of people ever stop.